What does it mean?

Great title up there, huh?

I'm becoming more concerned with what it is I am actually aiming to paint. It's delving further into an area I'm at once comfortable with but also find great difficulty articulating. My work involves bodies, so far mostly women's bodies, and it's hard for me to discern why. The obvious first answer is the fact that I am a young woman and could most immediately relate to my own body. However, I actively try to avoid depicting myself and, as of right now, I am comfortable stating I'd rather keep it that way. Then again, I drew a picture of two people with ambiguous genders yesterday in my sketchbook, but I positioned them in a way that implied intimacy underneath a thin veil of... camaraderie? As if they were friends. Still, they were sitting far too close, legs entwined, for it to be a simple closeness in friendship. Maybe I just wanted to draw two people blurring the line between platonic and physical relationships. Or maybe there's something more? I cannot be sure and this post is sounding really obnoxious in the "deep" contemplation and meandering of thought that is going on. I still think there's something important about that sketch, though. I've gotten further away from the abstract figurations I started the semester with though I don't want to completely abandon that idea. My problem is understanding why I even want to render these things. There has to be a better reason than "it looks cool" (though in some cases I think that's a totally viable reason to make something). I am apprehensive because this is weighty territory and it should be treated with sensitivity and a good sense of awareness. It's good to have tact, you know?

Anyhow. That's enough.